birthdays as a ritual to receive + be seen
a writing reflection on birthdays, nature as a teacher and embodied receiving/being
For a long time birthdays have been a source of uncomfortability. A day of going inward, not so much in a reflection way, but instead to the tune of isolation and hiding.
With attention towards me, my visibility heightened, there has been for a very long time a sense of urgency to disappear on the anniversary of my birth. For awhile I convinced myself that this energy was in alignment of a way to reflect and come into union closer with self, but through honest curiosity and exploration I have seen how birthdays trigger the feeling of being seen and for a long time, being seen was scary (and sometimes still is).
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